Have you ever had musical ambitions?

Did you act on them, or was it all just a LARP in your head and you gave up before giving it a go or gave up shortly after trying to realise your ideas?

I did, until I broke into heaven and got mogged. You wouldn't believe it. I live a life of penance and contemplation now.

Trust fund band

Who mogged you?

Tell us more about your trust fund band, anon
Any groupies?

i'm 10 years into my quest since I was 18 and I practice basically every other day, mostly guitar but I also play drums and sing. After first year I had one shit instrumental EP which was definitely soulful and original cause I was a novice, then I had a few bands the third which was a 3 piece I played a concert with fronting the band basically the highlight of my life as an artist, then 2 years later I had a full album done which I thought was good but doesn't get me a lot of praise when I show it to people, still convinced the right listeners would enjoy it. Anyways have only finished like 2 songs in the last 5 years but I'm very much quality over quantity now which means I rarely release anything

I wish

I honestly don't know. It could've been angels or just saints. It was terrifying holiness and more beautiful than anything on earth.

Jesus

I wrote some demos, but never did anything with them. I went through a phase of listening to really underground music and got blackpilled by how many amazing artists and songs there are with barely a thousand plays - so I just gave up. Success is either down to luck, nepotism, or attractiveness.
I listened to the demos recently and really liked them, but they were never going to do more than 1000 streams on Spotify, even if I had fleshed them out.

I'm not great at doing things that aren't inherently fun or make me money which is half the reason it took me so long to find a career. I've tried writing music plenty of times but I can never get it to sound anywhere close to what I want and after enough time of it not being fun I realize I've accidentally moved onto something else without even realizing it.

It's okay though, I realized as I got older that most musicians don't make much of a living and even if I did make it to the level of, like, Alvaays, the constant touring and pressure to deliver another good album over and over again would eat away at me. Couple that with awful benefits and no way to retire unless you make it really big and it's just not a good match for the life I want to live

FAT
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soundcloud.com/wetdreammachine/cassowary

thats the last song I recorded which was more "hardcore" had a great bass tone and some more harsher vocals, was quite fond of what I did to the guitar solo layering it and toward the end I kinda double tracked drums which sounds crazy but I felt the song got pretty climactic in the end

being a musician isn't about solely wanting to make money its about bearing your soul and producing something that was meaningful to you, also it is a lot of fun working on music especially early on

I totally get that but my priorities changed as I entered my 30s. It turns out I really enjoy programming so even if it isn't as artistically pure as making music would be and it means I have to put up with managers I don't always get along with, the stability means I'm overall happier than if I were a reasonably successful musician

thats why youre in a great place if you liked being a musician cause you have a career so you don't have to worry about money and you can make music that you like in your free time, my band ended because everyone ended up focusing on their jobs because they saw no end game with the music, for me endgame was just being a part of the local scene realistically but they didn't really hold the weight with that that I did

I did band from 5th grade and at times thought I might play in a hobby orchestra but college ate up all my time so I stopped playing. Been thinking about picking up my horn again though.

i turn 27 in november

band had a good run, peaked at 8k listeners. genre would be called alt country / indie rock i guess.
the path to 50k is still clear but i guess i just don’t really feel it anymore

i had a good copywriting job, lost it in february, then lost my girl soon after (typical slav behaviour) and it broke my spirit

writing songs, having a nice career, studying her language, in my mind i did it all so i could take care of a nice girl and share a happy life, but idk if girls like that really exist, they just kind of exist in my head
can’t really write music once that fantasy is shattered either

i mean it was hard work, but it felt worth it for her, and ofc all the lyrics were about how love heals all and yada yada yada
but nowadays i’m in so much unalloyed pain, and that angst typically doesn’t translate well in my writing. i’m a terrible complain-ee i guess

now that i’m unemployed and single, i play dota 15 hours a day. i just hit 6.2k MMR and i was thinking of maybe trying to go pro
10 years ago i was on a team with a guy that would eventually win TI. i left him because i wanted to find a girlfriend and i knew that high-level dota would stand in the way of that
maybe that’s where my life started to go wrong
i dunno
women are just, i dunno. they’re not REAL, they’re superficial, ephemeral in order to fulfil their own fantasies of femininity. in my heart i know i was meant to have a quiet bucolic life with a russian wife and a daughter and a dog, but i think i’m just gonna play dota and if that doesn’t work out, go back to uni (fuck advertising) and do a real job like teaching

i’d probably get back into music if i fell in love again, but to TRULY see someone, and for them to see you in the same way… it’s rare, and idk, maybe it’ll just never happen for me

my music so you know it’s not a larp: vocaroo.com/1e3ftseyjP2c

i mean it’s not GREAT but i thought we were giving something real to people

I played in a indie band
We recorded two albums
Played 3 shows with about a dozen people in the audience
Never made any money
Never got famous
The end

it's a funny thing that. To me music is something you can do for 3 hours everyday, that's not what I would call a job. And I consider myself obsessed with it. It's very weird how people just give up on music once they get jobs, I guess they just didn't really love it in the first place.

Keep it in the shillthread FAGGOT

People in the thread litterally asked for it, don't be so touchy

You fell for their trick. Now you are on the blacklist of pathetic shills

I'm still working on my music. I don't expect to be a big deal living in a mansion, driving around in a Ferrari but doing shows at bars and small clubs is realistic where i live (almost dead music scene where i live)

i work a part time job at a warehouse at nights so i work on my music during the day.
I'm still trying.

My music it kind of like if you mix Blink and New order together.

I played live and got a round of applause. I filled a music book with new compositions. I learnt tonnes of theory and could rival professional players without too much trouble.

I did get fed up of hiking around London though. And became disillusioned with recorded music and the disgusting panhandling of my peers.

I'm not that ambitious these days, any more. I play my instrument and that's it, really.

One of my stumbling blocks was paying good money for studio time and a producer and ending up with unlistenable garbage. He totally didn't get what I wanted , I'd have sounded better recording it myself on an iPhone. That was a lot of money for nothing.

Another is it's an huge amount of practice, to play to people that don't give a hoot (not always, but sometimes).

Another is how desperate the other wannabes are, there's not much co-operation out there and everyone wants to ruin it for everyone else. Don't even countenance it, you're better off playing in a field to the birds.

I still compose. I think the next thing for me is to learn orchestration so I can write for other instruments. I was going to hire a violin so I can get to know strings. I should learn a wind instrument as well, really.

HTH.

Signal phone hack
Opsec game weak
Into your DM's I creep

but then my ex-gf bit my arm so hard it severed my tendon

but then a lying cheating bitch falsely accused me of rape

What an odd pattern

I did, and some of it was cool but I very quickly realized that just cause I was mentally ill didn't mean I was gonna make anything good. Objectively, it's mostly trash. I'm far better as a session musician but ultimately I don't have the time or energy to even dedicate myself to that without taking time away from my wife or social life, and the returns are a pittance.

you should do it cause you love doing it!

but I don't, the thing I'm best at is not particularly creative at all (and being a session musician makes you more valuable the less creative you are)

Yeah all through my 20s I was in and out of bands, working with other musicians etc. I was too much an alcoholic drug addict for it to go anywhere but it was fun. Now I'm 30 and mostly sober so just make music for myself now, sometimes an old friend will get in touch and we'll jam but that's about it.

What an odd pattern

i blame my mother's abuse, she literally drove me psychotic, which resulted in bad relationships with women. but i also blame feminism, because women get away with shit like that and just lie and manipulate men. i am literally the victim though. stop demonizing men.

glowie post, do better

but yeah, i 100% blame feminism. women do drugs and cheat and lie and fucking assault you if you call them out for cheating, or lie and manipulate men to literally try to murder you to cover their tracks for cheating... in other cultures, men and women love each other. in other culture nobody gives a fuck that there are gays and trans people. north american culture makes everything into a form of violent oppression and revenge because north americans are so fucking stupid and degenerate. it's hell.

I did, and rubbed elbows w/ semi-famous/famous people for a bit. There are a handful of scene/genre legends that follow me, but I don't really have fanbase of make money. The local-level bands got really pissy at my mere existence and did as much as possible to sabotage my life. Currently, I'm working on new material while waiting to get an apartment. At this point, I'm in it just to spite the people who want(ed) to see me fail. I don't care if I succeed, I just want the stick around as more of my enemies quit, grow bitter, and more resentful.